One Chronicle

(Source: here)

"It will be good when you find someone that will be the first and the last later on"

She, my best friend from elementary school, gave me that speech. I laugh of that but couldn't pretend that was false. She was shock when I said "I don't have one until now" and mumbled "How could the girl like you still alone?" I still continued my laugh and though "What could I do? this is me, still alone until now"

Cry or laugh? Well for this time, I choose to laugh. I even couldn't imagine that. Just like a puzzle, make me dizzy. In case, I just curious about what will happen, when, where, who, and how I meet him? Is he my friend? Is he the one whom I know before? Or Is he just a stranger?

I know it would be interesting to meet him. Meet someone who will be mine and make me comfortable  when I am with him. Or when I curious for what has he done, he would say: "I just want you feel comfortable". Ooooh, I miss that moment!! Do I have? Bwahah, I don't know yet. Just gone with the wind.

What would I do now? Hmmm..
First, I would improve my skill in the other parts, Second, I would improve my skill in the other parts. Third, I wanna hike to a mountain, get an invitation to Papandayan, Yippieee. Hopefully, I can get my parent's permission to do this. Fourth, build the network. Love skill, maybe later after I meet him. Aiyayayaya.. What ever!! Hahaha.

Expectation is the root of all heartache

(William Shakespeare)

Life Travelling

(Suatu saat ingin ke sana. Menikmati kedamaian dalam ketenangan. Rasa-rasanya saya melihat gambaran tempat di novel yang saya tulis. Kasian sudah terkubur hingga 2 tahun belum saya lanjutkan)

Sudah lama sekali rasanya saya tak mencoba mengaitkan kata tanpa aturan
Bidang yang saya geluti mewajibkan saya menulis mengikuti grammar dan semua antah berantah yang terkadang membutuhkan tanggapan orang, kritikan, dan hal-hal membangun yang sedikit banyak membuat saya juga terluka, meski saya tahu ada ilmu di sana
Saya sedang tidak mencoba menjadi buta, tuli atau keras kepala
Hanya saja, akan ada kan rasa kecewa dengan buah karya yang tak dirasa sempurna, baik bagi mereka dan tentu saja bagi saya selaku subjeknya

Saya teringat tulisan saya yang sudah terkubur dalam folder folder komputer yang tak lagi sempat saya jamah
Rencana-rencana dan jadwal pembunuh waktu yang saya siapkan sebelumnya sebagai amunisi saya menghabiskan malam sepi sudah tergantikan dengan lembur tak berujung dan sikap tepar sempurna
Entah saya saja yang malas, entah sudah bosan menatap layar selama bekerja, entah inspirasi saya yang sudah terbenam jauh ke dasar sana, yang jelas, tulisan yang sudah saya rangkai masih menanti untuk dilanjutkan.